pieces of me

missing half....

2005-09-07T01:23:00.000-07:00

psstt, where could you be?! it's been days since I haven't heard from you... it's just that somethings are missing whenever i don't get to hear from you... There's a part of me, longing and wanting you so bad...

Pls. come back!

weekend posts..

2005-08-28T19:30:00.000-07:00

be posting this for updates since friday until today.. this would be for my BC 103 journal entry.. i forgot to write kasi, hehe.. anyways, busy lang me chatting with Gaia people.. of course, kay Tomas no! haha.. super crush ko na talaga siya.. gee... lagot! it's he's bday na today and sad to say di xa online ngaun.. so un send pa rin me ng msg.. hoping he'll check it out mamaya... oh yeah, last saturday I had na may interview with Sir Willy, putcha naman tong si MIk2 oh, tagal dumating.. buti na lang, bait ni sir.... un nakapag interview pa rin kami.. hehe.. and then un, pag-gabi na... nag chat na naman.. hai, grabe sweet talaga ni Tomas...

ok, sunday.. grabe it was cool.. after namin magsimba, hang out lang kami nina Mik and te devz at ayala.. photo shoot ung trip, haha.. it was really fun... kaso nga lang pangit fone ko tuloy d masyado clear ung mga pics, chege na lang..

hai, buti na lang ngaun la klas.. so, d pa namin issubmit ung article.. yahoo! buti na lang.. thank ate glo, hah!

oy, nung friday pala, la lang nandun lang mi boearding haws... na cancel ung interview ko with Mr. Willy and Ms. NiNi.. umemail na lang me.. un din chat na naman, haha..

ung na un, baboosh!

rainy days

2005-08-24T22:02:00.000-07:00

It's been days since I haven't really slept well. u know those days that you still have to be up by 12 or not even wanting to sleep since there are a lot of things to be done.. I remember one time, Bebe my roomate told me how envy she was of me coz it seems we don't hav a lot of things to do for school. Hmmm, I guess she's all wrong. I myself thought the same thing.. How i wish things would all be easy. But I know it just won't... And we all get to have rainy days in us.. Pouring rain which could signify things need to be catched up with.. But I thought that it would be a good thing to relax during rainy days, since it's so cold and the feeling of slushing into bed is swarming all over you..

But it isn't the way it seems.. rainy days could also mean something else... ya, something else...

NOW I KNOW......

waah.. slept at 6 am

2005-08-21T02:29:00.000-07:00

ok, so I did slept at 6 am na kanina.. tinapos ko talaga ung article.. geez, career ito.. yeah, i had fun playing gaia, its really cool.. hehe... ngaun, play me uli gaia.. yepeey, meron na dress ung character ko, un nga lang di pa masyado maganda... need to get more golds pa..

geezzz...

2005-08-19T23:30:00.000-07:00

I already woke up late, as in 12 noon coz I slept kaninang 3 na... Been figuring out on how to start my article. Buti na lang meron me nasulat kahit konti.. Hirap pala... hai! good luck.. up to now, i'm still struggling on how to build up everything from every detail of it. Goodluck na lang talaga... Basta umabot lang ng 1500 words ok na.. grr... i'm really freaking out na... sana it would turn out the way it should be, d naman cguro me ganun ka palpak mag write noh? d nga lang ganun ka galing, but i'll try.. I really have to try and exert 101% effort..

wish me luck...^_-

like the usual

2005-08-18T06:12:00.000-07:00

it has been days since everyone's been freakin busy with their articles, interviews here and there.. hai! it's really tiring but I just realized that it's nice to go and do field work rather than just being confined in the 4 walls of the classroom. Jac, Bianx and I were talking nga kanina na sana field work na nga lang lagi, hehe... interview na lang sana lagi, and di na lang kami magsusulat, ahah! d ata pwede yun.. ngee... How I wish, I'm really that good in writing, shocks! pressure etoh! goodluck!

Done with my interview, shocks si Sir Jerry d alam ano blogging, gosh, bawas pogi points.. hehe.. pro cge lang wafu pa rin xa though tanda na nga lang niya, pro in fairness la wrinkles ha... eiii, how I wish sa Freeman na lang me mag iintern, hehe... And talino din talaga... saludo me sa inu Sir!

Hai, inis talaga BC 103, la pa me script... Oh yeah, I almost forgot.. naku d me nakapag exam, 90 pts. pa naman, sanand nalang me pumasok ng LIT 3, la rin naman me nasagot, kaya un d nalang ako nag take ng exam, ayos! astig dba? D rin kami nag attend ng BC 102, nag recording na naman daw, hai naku.. hectic kasi sched... ehehe...

anways, have to keep up with things, gawa pa me ng script... shit talaga... grrr....

pero k lang, smile Annie.. ^_^ aja! hehe....

hai buhay!

2005-08-17T02:06:00.000-07:00

shit, bat d na publish ung post ko kanina, grrr.... kainis! This wud be my 2nd time, arrgg...

anyways, been busy l8ly so ngaun lang me post ulit.. (lintek naman tung keyboard to!) malas nga naman... anyways, been keeping up with my feature for our Journ class, until now been dreading on finding for local sources. But atleast nag reply si Mr. Limpag from SunStar.. meron na me 3 sources... pro I really have to have more local sources.. Kainis kasi ung DYAB, d man lang nag reply... been sending them a lot of emails na.. D rin macontact ung landline, arrgggg...

anyways, last night I was able to receive responses from Mr. Omanio and Mr. Limpag, hai, thank God! at least, meron na me.. Buti na lang, they're so bait and they do entertain my questions...

Hopefully, i'l get done with the interview with sources. Kulang ko na lang talaga ung CDN and The Freeman, hopefully meron din sila. or any of their journalist... Oh ya, I almost forgot, la pa me script for the reporting this friday on BC 103, shocks naman Oh! pandagdag hirap! Arrgggg.. I'm tired na, good luck na lang talaga!

grrr....

2005-08-17T01:54:00.000-07:00

been busy lately, so ngaun lang me ulit nakapag post... been struggling to look for sources for my feature article. Buti na lang naawa ata ung iba,they were able to take time in responding to my inquiry. Luckily, meron na me source in the local scene, kaya nga lang 1 pa.. pro k na lang... i'll be looking on for more, try ko pa with CDN and The Freeman... i just hope meron kahit isang journalist man lang..

Oh yeah, i need to post this too. For our journal entry in BC 103 no... Ya, last night I checked on my email and to my surprise may nag reply, hehe... I thought la na talaga me pag-asa. Buti na lang, nag reply din si Mr. limpag, kasi kailangan ko talaga source within Cebu.. Pero nakakainis nga lang kasi ung DYAB di pa rin nag reply... and d ko rin ma contact fone nila, grrr... I guess i'll have to go to their office, shocks layo pa naman nun... hmmp... But anyways, mag grocery din me, kasi nagpadala na mama ko,hahah... i bought a lot of food, kasi nga pag stress ka at depress kain ka ng kain.. ayun, pagkain talaga dinamihan ko na.. habang may pera pa, dba?!

hai, I'm tired na actually, keeping up with so many things in school... ya, i almost forgot, la pa me script for thereporting on BC 102 dis friday, naku! ewan ko na talaga! cge, isip mo na me ng topic...

hai, goodluck ateh!

my head is spinnin'

2005-08-10T01:08:00.000-07:00

I just had a hangover from last nyt's "inuman", haha... yeah, the feelin was just eek... d ko ma gets... I just felt so tired and pissed... I have to wake up early to prepare for my P.E. class... but at least, I had a great time dancing in my ballroom class.. Somehow it helped me to feel relieved... hahai....

No photography class, and checked things out with Ms. Tabada for the feature... hai, got to start things up na or else I would end up having "singko", haha... Nerve wracking in a way coz your on your own and nobody else will help you but u, urself... shocks! this is really it!

Been busy this afternoon surfing the net and sending emails to some prospects that might be able to give me some infos. Im quite happy though na si Mr. Quezon was able to reply and gave me the link to his speech at the iBlog mini summit, hai.. atleast meron nako kahit konte... (thanks a lot sir...)

But I've been thinking that what if tomorrow, in my consultation w/ Madam, she might reject or I don't know perhaps want me to look for something new instead of my chosen topic... hai, I would not know what to do, if that wud be the case... I'll just kill myself na lang cguro,haha!

Oh yeah, last night I went to the pre quel and it was ok... Ate Fedz was really the attraction of the show, I suppose.... been the favorite among the crowd (to make fun with?hehe) nah, juz kidding! she's just the center of attraction, I guess.. And yeah, last night was the worst, I had enough of it... Buti na lang di mi sumabog, haha... The scene was killin' me... them together?! haller, whole day na nga xla magkasama... shit, inis na talaga ako... but the thing is, y is it whenever he wud ask me or even tease me na nag seselos daw me, I wud not admit it... I don't know, I keep on pretending I'm ok, when in fact I'm not for the past 8 months na...

* I just don't understand what's up with me or even with us*

feelin f*cked....

2005-08-08T20:22:00.000-07:00

there are days when you feel so f*cked up and low.. even boring at times..
I just did... yeah, today is ... Am I really sayin' dis?! hai, I just don't know y.. It's prequel na dis eve but I'm not even excited after all... I woke up late and that just started the day, upside down... The feeling is killing me, ung tipo bang gusto mo pang matulog pro d na pwede... nakakainis kasi ung feeling. bitin..un! tama, bitin talaga... hahai... buhay nga naman...

and ash is killing me too... been sending a lot of quotes that would eventually blow up my fone, haha..How I wish!.. (so that my mom would buy me na a new fone, haha!)

*lately, I have been eating a lot, as in A LOT... and that makes me worried... I just don't understand, is it my stomach? my brain? or I'm just being depressed lately... I don't get it anymore.. I already consume much of my money on buying foods everynow and then, hai, ubos na talaga money ko, huhu!

but the thing is, d pa rin me nabubusog, hmp... i think dami na alaga ko sa tiyan, yikes! haha...dapat na q cguro mag de worm, mag combantrin?! tama ba spelling, ai ewan.. basta... I don't understand what's happenin in me...

WHAaaaaaaaa, I feel so fat and ugly! sh*t...

WHAT TREE DID YOU FALL FROM?

2005-08-07T03:02:00.000-07:00

Hornbeam Tree (Good Taste) - of cool beauty, cares for> its looks and condition, good taste, is not egoistic,> makes life as comfortable as possible, leads a> reasonable and disciplined life, looks for kindness> and acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of> unusual lovers, is seldom happy with its feelings,> mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions,> very conscientious.

HUh?! hornbeam?! I don't have any idea what tree is this.. haha, anyways,ayos description ah.. hehe...

moOOoviEE....

2005-08-06T05:47:00.000-07:00

* D ANOTHERs...*

Watched this movie last Wednesday with my Baby.. ahah.. ngaun ko lang ata na recall... nyehehe.. Astig, nakaka aliw.. galing talaga ni Vhong... haha...

dami ata nanood, halos la na nga kami maupuan.. ung mga scenes dun halo2x from diff. movies like feng shui and kill bill 2... comedy/horror ung genre nya...

Ya,not to mention roxanne and jorosss,it's their big break if I may say.. galing ni Rox dun, idol!

untitled?

2005-08-06T04:41:00.000-07:00

been doing research lately for this journ feature that we'll be makin up.. hai, my brain isn't just workin... but at least i got some help from k'ya jobert bout an angle for the "press freedom topic"... I've visited a couple of blog, actually there are a lot of them, kaso hina kasi net connection hehe.. can't open em' all.. I already got some idea pro I'm not really quite sure though if how would I start the thing, "right!"... I'm startin to freak out, even nga in my dreams puro "blogosphere" pa rin.. naku.. ewan ko na lang...Gudluck ateh! hehe...

*sakit ng puson, ewan ko ba... meron ata ako ngaun*

hai, badtrip naman weather oh, d mo ma gets... umuulan na naman... Ung mga nilabhan ko, nako d talaga yun matutuyo...hehe..

my patronus

2005-08-06T04:00:00.000-07:00

Gee, here's my patrunos...(it's the harry potter thing, you know!) The Eagle! The eagle is a symbol of spirituality, courage and protection. He will protect you with his sharp talons. That your Patronus is an eagle says that you are very concerned with the spiritual things of life. You are also a brave person who would go out of your way to protect those you love. A small amount of fear is healthy, however; keep that in mind and you will be an amazing witch or wizard!

an avril song...

2005-08-05T20:48:00.000-07:00

*L.S.S.*

FALL TO PIECES
Avril Lavigne

I looked away

Then I look back at you

You try to say

The things that you can't undo

If I had my way I'd never get over you

Today's the day I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall

Make it through it all

[Chorus:]

And I don't wanna fall to pieces

I just want to sit and stare at you

I don't want to talk about it

And I don't want a conversation

I just want to cry in front of you

I don't want to talk about it

Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,

I'd be with till the end

When I come undone

You bring me back again

Back under the stars

Back into your arms

[Chorus]

Wanna know who you are

Wanna know where to start

I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel

Wanna know what is real

I wanna know everything, everything

[Chorus without last line]

[Chorus]

I'm in love with you

Cuz i'm in love with you

I'm in love with you

friday...

2005-08-05T04:01:00.000-07:00

morning:

nothin much, we just attended the student's consultation.. hai, tao nga naman.. parang d pa sanay kung ano ba talaga environment sa UP... no to smoking ba daw, sabi nung ewan na guy, hai.. sarap niyang sapakin, bat pa kc sa UP nag-aral if he's unable to blend up and get use to the environment.. hmp, nkaka lang gana nman oh, bad trip talaga...Though I don't smoke, in a way affected pa rin ako, not only bcoz I do have friends who smoke in school, but the thing is, its a way of repressing the students rights.. and besides they don't smoke inside the classrooms, sa tambayan lang... hai naku, ewan ko nga ba.. hirit pa nung isa, keyso may hika daw, hello? common sense po, eh di lumayo o kaya lipat nlng sa ibang tambayan, probs ba yun.. naku naman.. palakihin ba ang isyu...

hai, na carried away ata talaga ako... nakakapag-init ng ulo kasi...

afternoon:

*INTROSPECTION*

d ko talaga na control self ko, umiyak ba sa harap ng COMM 3 class?! haha, dyahe talaga.. but in away, after that I felt so relieved...knowing na I was able to share something sa class.. naks, bout my mom pa.. hehe... miss ko na nga pla mama ko, kahit la me kwentang anak... luv pa rin ako nun... heheh...

hai, what a day...

aawww...

2005-07-24T19:49:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived: happiness, sadness, knowledge, and all the others, including love. One day it was announced to all of the feelings that the island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean. So all the feelings prepared their boats to leave. Love was the only one that stayed. She wanted to preserve the island paradise until the last possible moment. When the island was almost totally under, Love decided it was time to leave. She began looking for someone to ask for help. Just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat. Love asked, "Richness, Can I come with you on your boat?" Richness answered, " I'm sorry, but there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would be no room for you anywhere." Then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who was passing in a beautiful vessel. Love cried out, "Vanity, help me please." "I can't help you", Vanity said, "You are all wet and will damage my beautiful boat." Next, Love saw Sadness passing by. Love said, "Sadness, please let me go with you." Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but, I just need to be alone now." Then, Love saw Happiness. Love cried out, " Happiness, please take me with you." But Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't hear Love calling to him. Love began to cry. Then, she heard a voice say, "Come Love, I will take you with me." It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name. When they arrived on land the elder went on his way. Love realized how much she owed the elder. Love then found Knowledge and asked, "Who was it that helped me?" "It was Time", Knowledge answered. "But why did Time help me when no one else would?", Love asked.Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and sincerity, answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is

at last...

2005-07-24T18:19:00.000-07:00

thank God, everything's ok na... hai, the one hell week was over, at last... I'm with my Baby again... hmmp, never felt this much good...

I'm hurtin' inside....

2005-07-18T20:31:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since we haven't talked.. I just don't understand y he's been acting that way lately.. He's just so COLd... and I've been guessing all this time wat cud be the reason for his change of attitude... I just don't know...

It so freakin' hard askin y this is happenin' between us, i just miss him, SO MUCh...

Perhaps I've done something so stupid that have hurt him, but he could have told me so that we could clear things up.. But the thing is, he doesn't want to, then I guess I'll just have to wait for the time that he'll open up.. But for how long?! I can't take it anymore, damn it! it's so hard... I'm hurting inside, and the pain is crushing me, bit by bit... each day of my life... i feel so incomplete.. and with the pain that I'm feeling right now, I could say that I no longer knew who I am...

first...

2005-07-10T08:38:00.000-07:00

nothing much... I haven't got anything to do... haha... I'm supposed to be asleep by now but then I don't want to since I have to keep up with this blog, anyways.. that's just it..for the sake that i'll get to preview what this blog looks like... ^_^